Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

As the new year is fast approaching I decided to write one last and final blog. 2009 wasn't too bad of a year for me...Lets recap shall we?

January--
I started the nursing program at Ivy tech. After much hard work I finally was accepted and very nervous come January. The first semester was pretty stressful just getting the hang of things. After a lot of hard work and studying I passed with flying colors.

February, March, April, May--
Ohhh where did they go? lol Nothing too interesting happened besides going to school. And once again I passed the second semester of nursing school with flying colors.

June, July, & August--

Well my summer wasn't quite a summer. I had to still attend school so I didn't really get much of a break. My mom, Peggy and I went to St. Louis and had a great time. It was a nice break just to get away. On August 12th I moved to terre haute. We lost our house and were forced to move. My mom, peggy and I rented an apartment right behind ivy tech. Summer classes seemed like they lasted forever. Med-Surg 2 was awful and it seemed like it would never end. But Once again I passed with flying colors. This semester even tho it was awful I became close with a few of my classmates. Aubry, Cortney, Dawn, Erica and Peggy. I love them all so much and I don't know how i would have passed without them!

September--

I had a new addition to my family! She is a Peka-Tzu (Pekinese &Shih Tzu). She weighed 4lbs and was 8 weeks old when I got her! Her name is Zoe!

Zoe and Chase get along real well, they play and tease each other non stop!

October--

On October 19th I started weight watchers. It is so hard to be on a diet when everyone else isn't. When I got up to 219 lbs I knew it was time to do something about my weight. I was diagnosed with PCOS a couple years ago. Its a female problem that causes you not to ovulate and gain weight. After a procedure I had in 2008 I was told that if I wanted children I would most likely have to have In Vitro. The only way to have a chance of this PCOS of going away is to lose weight. So I decided that if one day I wanted children I had to do something about it. I want to be healthy and live a long life. I mean really NO ONE wants to be fat! So as of today December 31st 2009 i've lost 30 lbs.  YAY! I want to be down to 150 by graduation which is in May.

This is a really bad pic but it shows how really fat I WAS!!

These Pictures were taken last week on Christmas eve!  The one on the left you can see that my stomach is smaller and the one on the right you can see my face is thinner!                               

I still have a long ways to go but I know now that I CAN DO IT!

December--

Christmas was very nice with my family! My brother and and future sister-inlaw came over and we had a very nice christmas dinner and exchanged gifts!

my mom gave me quite a scare a few weeks ago with chest pain. I rushed her to the emergency room and after alot of test and an overnight stay they said it was just stress. Thank you GOD! I don't know what i'd do if something happened to her! This past monday she had to go in and have and Endometrial biopsy, hysteroscopy and D&C. She has been having some girly problems and they wanted to check for cancer. She came out of surgery ok but we still don't know what the results from the test are! I'm just hoping and praying they come back ok!

Mom deal with it i'm putting a pic of you one here! xxoo

So i've had Alot of fun this year with my mom, peggy, dana and all my friends from school! I hope 2010 is even better..

As for 2010...

My new years resolution is to lose this additional 40lbs. I want to be 150 by May 9th. On May 9th I will be graduating from college and will officially be an RN!! After finding a job I hope to begin my bachelors at Indiana Weselyan.  I plan on getting my masters and becoming a Nurse Practitioner! Hopefully specializing in OB!  I want to help my mom lose weight and become healthy so that she'll be around for a long long time. I want to become closer to god and start attending church more often! I want to become closer to my BFF Dana! I want to try and be a better person and try to appreciate life and my mom more! I also hope to find my prince charming this year lol! So.....

2010 Here i come!!

P.S. oh and don't forget life is not measured by the breaths you take but by the moments that take your breath away!

I will NOT get frustrated!

So on October 19th I started weight watchers. I started weighing in at 219. That is the heaviest i've ever been in my life. Considering when I graduated high school in 2001 I weighed 110 lbs. So in the last 8 years i've gained 100 lbs. OMG!! So the first week I lost 6.8 lbs. Which was awesome. Mostly water weight but awesome. The second week I lost 3.6 lbs. My weigh date is on Mondays. So as of today I've only lost 1.6 lbs for the week. And what is the craziest thing is that i've been walking everyday! I'm really trying not to get frustrated and I know this is normal. I will have off weeks. But it doesn't stop me from feeling like a failure. I graduate from nursing school in May. I figured out that if I lost an average of 3lbs a week i can lose 72 lbs before graduation. That would be AWESOME!! Although at this present moment I'm not feeling very confident about achieving this. I WILL NOT GET FRUSTRATED!

October 20th 2009--End of the Semester

It has been the worst last couple days ever! When I started the nursing program back in January there were 40 of us. We all got to know each other really well and are now like a huge family and support system for each other. We rely on and depend on each other for support and we see each other every day. We really have no life outside of this program and I have made some of the BESTEST friends!! Aubrey, Cortney, Peggy, Dawn, Erica and so on! We have all gotten really close! For the first whole semester we were all together and then for 2nd and 3rd semesters we got broke up in half. 20 of us went to Med Surg 2 and 20 of us went to OB/Peds and then we switched. Yesterday was my classes final for ob/peds. We lost at least 3 people so far who failed. Some failed by 0.01 of a point and they fail you! Which is a little ridiculous if you ask me! One of those 3 girls have become one of my best friends! She is so sweet and kind and will become a great nurse one day! She just has a little bump in the road and has to retake ob/peds which mean she doesn't move on with us The med surg 2 class lost like 8 people so far. so we are down to like less than 30 people. It's so sad. I don't want to graduate without them. We were supposed to do this all together. It totally sucks! I have been an emotional wreck and it wasn't even me that failed. I know i'm being a drama queen but i can't help it. I'm emotional ok?? lol I feel like I can't even be happy that I did GREAT in ob/peds and it's totally my calling! I aced those tests like nothing and realized how much i love labor and delivery and pediatrics. I hope to one day work at Riley or St. Vincents or Chicago Childrens Memorial. Well enough on that note or i'll start crying again! I just want all those who we lost to know how much i'm gonna miss them and you ALL will be great nurses one day! Don't get discouraged you WILL make it! Just don't forget to stay in touch.